MY NEW AND IMPROVED BLOGGY BLOG & All about Hair

EEP! 

As you can tell, I FINALLY CREATED MY OWN HEADER!

And I could not be more in love with it! 

I have really taken this blog into my own hands and am going to make it exactly how I want it to look!

This is just the beginning, I want to add a lot more and I will be switching out headers for the seasons, etc.

I really feel like I can express myself and really dive into my blog now (not that I wasn't before hehe)

Well today I am coming to you with information about my HAIR...

I have been needing to get my hair done for so long, and I have always just used the box dyes and everytime I end up hating it! So I am thinking with this new body of mine, I really want to change up my hair since that is probably the second if not the first thing someone notices about you when they first meet you. Kinda important! I am also very careful about using heat protectant and what not.

This is my hair now:

I call it 'mousey brown' I feel as if I have no specific color...

And even though my hair is curled in this picture, I do have really long hair!

Almost down the middle of my back (yikes!)

So here are some ideas about what I want the color to be:

AH! I just don't know what to do...

Comment down below and tell me which one you think I should do, dark or light?

And now for the cut, I think that I am going to go with this one:

I am just obsessed with the length and the layers <3

That is all for tonight! I am so happy to have my baby updated and looking good!

xoxo

What's on my mind...

This post is not related to weight loss at all, so I apologize but I just feel the need to write down some of my feelings that are clogging my mind up...

Currently in my life, it might seem like I am on top of the world because of the weight loss and what not, but this depression has really gotten to me. Waking up every morning with the right mindset, and with the thought that "something wonderful is going to happen" is all good and dandy but when it comes down to it I am just straight unhappy. It has been like this for the past couple of months which I mentioned in a below post. I don't know if it is just every teenager my age that goes through this phase where nothing makes sense in life or if it is just me. I decided in the summer, that enough was enough and I was going to take the year 2013 as a year to completely reevaluate my life and make my mental and physical health top notch. So as I am sharing my weight loss journey with all of you, I also want to take the time to go through the journey of reevaluating my life and mental health with you all because "The Journey to a New Dee" doesn't only mean my outer appearance, but so much more than that.

One thing that I have noticed that came earlier this year, was my sense of what really is important in my life. Surrounding yourself with only positive and happy people is key to becoming successful yourself. And I know that might sound a little discomforting, but along with working hard, surrounding yourself with positive, and people who are in the same situation you are really helps you to bring out the best in each other.

Another thing that I have noticed, (enough of the heavy talk) is how different my sense of style and personality has changed. Okay, I am not going to lie to any of you because this is me opening up and finding out who I really am, but I used to be in the "party" crowd a couple of months ago and I was never home. I mean gone straight out of school until late at night hanging out with all of my friends which I thought was the most important thing in my life at the time. I did not have my priorities straight at all and was putting my friends infront of my physical health, and my mental health. Now it has definatly changed. I can't tell you good it feels to focus on myself for a change and I know that might sound selfish but in all honesty focusing on making myself better and only doing things I wanted to do is so refreshing! I have built and amazing strong relationship with my parents and my sister and beautiful niece and have realized alot about what is most important. If my relationship with my parents and family is off, my entire mood and way of living is off.

Anyway! Sorry about all of the blabber but I wanted to open up a little bit more about not only the physical changes that are happening in my life but the personal ones as well. And I by no means are better when it comes to my anxiety and depression but I know how to deal with a lot better now, now that I am becoming one with myself.

Thank you everyone who reads this blog, you are coming along this journey with me as well not just me! Stick around for this amazing journey and I can't wait to see what the future holds!

BEFORE AND AFTER

BEFORE AND AFTER PICTURE?!

Yes, you heard it right! Today I will be sharing with you my half way point before and after picture...I decided to post this picture on Instagram because I wanted to be an inspiration to people to lose weight and boy what a response I got! 141 likes and more than 30 comments telling me how proud they were of me, if that's not motivation I don't know what it is!

Before I show you guys my before and after, I would like to do a quick shout out to everyone who had stuck by my side since Day 1. My family first off who has to deal with me day in and day out and all of the drama and ups and downs I have put you through since this journey. Also to my close group of friends who not once showed little interest and not once have they told me to "Shh!" every time I talk about my diet. In other words thank you to everyone who has been supportive, without you guys I would be nowhere! And now here's the picture!

    Ah! Here it is, I could not be any more happier!

    

The statistics:

Before: 260 lbs (yikes!)

Mid-Way point: 213 lbs! (So surreal)

So ladies and gents I have lost a total of 47 pounds! It still amazes me every time I step on that scale..that just seven long months ago I was that heavy and was depressed with how my life was, and I thought that loosing weight was impossible, let alone I thought I myself would never last! And look at me know! My life has already drastically changed!

ISN'T THIS CRAZY?! 

Here are some more statistics:

Bra size before:

46 DD

Now:

38 DD

Pant size before:

18

Now:

10/12

Shirt size before:

3x

Now:

Large/XL in some places

Shoe size before?! YES!

9 1/2

Now:

8! (Crazy)

Things are changing in my life daily, and I am so glad I made this blog to show my progress along this crazy journey! Stick with me everyone!

What have I been up to?

AH! So I am so excited to share with you

all what I have been working on for a couple

of months and this is not anything "big" it is just

exciting to me because it helped me through alot!

 

 

So I am sure we have all heard of Pinterest right...? Well if you haven't you are seriously missing out!

Basically it is a website where they have everything from Home Decor, Recipes, Beauty and Fashion tips to hilarious random pictures! So whenever I am bored at home (or going through a moment like I explained in my previous post) Pinterest is where I go! I have over 7000 posts (oopsie! (: )

 

Anyway so I came along a tutorial for theses adorable headbands, so I went to the link to where they explained how to make these headbands and whenever I saw no sew I was in! It is so simple and their made out of old shirts around your house that you do not want or wear anymore! I have a bunch so I took an afternoon and went to town. There is something about diving head first into an exciting craft or project for me that gets me so pumped and energetic! I literally had a smile on my face when I was done because I got to look at these headbands on my floor and knew that I had made them (is that just me?)

 

So I thought a lot about what I can do with them and I figured "Hey, why not sell them?" So that is what I am going to do! I am currently setting up an Etsy account (which if you have not been there your missing out as well) where I will be selling my headbands that I made! I not only made the ones off of Pinterest, but so many more as well which I will be selling! That triggered my creative side and so off I went to Michaels craft store to check everything out and...lets just say I am there about four times a week! (oopsie!) There are just so many different possabilities as to what you can create yourself! Why pay a fortune for something that you can easily make yourself?

 

So here are some pictures of the headbands and the other creations that I have whipped up that will all be for sale on Etsy in no time!

Here are the ones that I made off of Pinterest! Sorry for such bad quality they are off my phone!

 

xoxo





UPDATE!

Wow! I am so sorry for not posting on here in so long, I have been going through ALOT in my personal life and I think it is appropriate (sorry if thats spelled wrong) to share it with you all since the title of my blog is "The Journey to a New Dee". And this has definately been a journey.

Well I guess we can start from the beginning. I have suffered from extreme Anxiety for about six years now. It all started going into freshman year of High School. I won't go into the details but lets just say for six years I have been struggling with every little thing and every decision I have had to make in my life and while making those decsions my anxiety kicks in and does not let me have a break. I mean everything from not eating for weeks, vomiting, not sleeping for weeks etc. It didn't affect me for long period of times throughout High School but when it did it would take control of my life. I never let it control my entire life so I could have a little bit of control of it while in school, but it all went downhill at the start of college.

First off, I chose to go to a community college one because it is way cheaper, and secondly even thinking about going off to school or to a university set me anixety off. So here I am all signed up for classes and everything and at 10:00 p.m. the night before classes were supposed to start I cancelled all of my classes and changed them to online classes... Now you kind of get the jist of how bad it really is. Well it turns out that online classes are the better option for me in the long run and I am happy about my decision. But that does not take away my anxiety. When my first year ended, I guess not waking up and having something to do all day and having no responsability gave me more time to sit and think about my anxiety and what the future holds. Now something you need to know about me is that I cannot stand change. If there is even talk about change in a room I am in my anxiety kicks in and I start shaking, my stomach feels sick and I start sweating. So you see where I am at right now.

Now since I am suffering from this anxiety along comes depression. The big bad word... I have never thought of myself as "depressed" because I always such amazing people surrounding me at all times and I was always surrounded with laughter and happiness and support. But I finally had to face the fact that I was depressed. Seeing all of your friends move on with their lives and start the beginning of the rest of their lives, seeing pictures of people do the same exact things that you have been longing to do hurts the worse. It almost feels like your feet are glued to the floor and everyone around you is constantly growing, moving on and having fun. This past summer I have really hit my rock bottom and decided to get help in the form of a therapist which was one of the things I said I would never do but I had to suck up my pride and go for it and I am so glad I did. I am only four sessions in but I already feel better.

Something else you should know about my depression and the way I am feeling. In high school I was a social butterfly. I was rarley ever home and I was always hanging out with friends and going out on the weekends and having the time of my life. It was like if I was home and I wasn't out with friends I felt weird. Well that has most definatly changed. I know that 50 percent of it was my depression, because when you are depressed getting off of the couch takes effort because all I wanted to do was hide from the world and get in Pinterest all day long...(sigh..sounds good right?) Well it started to affect everyone around me such as my family started questioning if something was more serious and I was not contimplating life or anything I was just depressed. My mom has gone through it so she understood what I was going through a little bit more. I wouldn't wish this on even the worst enemy in my life...

BUT (sorry for the heavy stuff) I just felt the need to fill you readers in if there are even any readers left because I haven't been on in so long I just wanted to let you guys know why.

I am for sure still dieting and doing really well! I have taken some time off due to what I said above, because all that sounded good was a cheeseburger from McDonalds and ice cream....comfort food?! Guilty as charged. BUT since I am still on the path of changing my life and reinventing myself I said enough is enough and got back onto my diet!

If you remember on my previous posts, I have lost 20 pounds doing the military diet which I have posts about below and I was able to keep the 20 pounds off for those couple of months which I was super excited about! So I still had the urge and passion to keep it up and I have!

I have officially lost another 10 pounds not doing the military, but just eating right and exercising!
AHH! I still can't believe it! I am so proud of myself (:

Some things that I eat on a daily basis so my daily menu:

Breakfast:
A bowl with 1 cut up apple, a handful of grapes, and 3/4 cup of Special K chocolty delight cereal (I still have to have my chocolate (; ..) And the fruit is seperate from the cereal! Also some days I will add and orange and always strawberries! Fills me up for about three hours.

Lunch:
For lunch I usually just have one wedge of the "Laughing Cow" cheese which is only 30 calories a wedge and you get alot! And I have that with more fruit, and a handful of the "Toasted Wheat Thin chips" and thats about it!

Dinner:
Most nights I will have a fillet of salmon with nothing but salt, pepper and a little bit of garlic salt oven baked with a side of some kind of vegetable! My two that I will probably only eat is canned corn or green beans!

And I usually skip dessert because it is not good to eat after 7 p.m.! BUUUT if I have a serious craving I will have a "Smart Ones" dessert found in the freezer isle.

SOOO I am officially down 30 pounds! Ah that is insane but I am so excited!

Starting weight: 260 ):
Current weight: 230 (:

I will post regulary now I promise!
xoxo

HI EVERYONE!

Wow I might just be the worst blogger, I have not posted in over a month! I am so sorry and I have not forgotten about my baby!

I know you all must be wondering about my weight loss journey...

I have still been doing my weight loss, BUT I have kind of lost a little bit of momentum which happens every time I try to diet but like I said from the beginning I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP!

I have not gained any of the weight that I have lost, but I am also not loosing any either which needs to change.

I have found something new to try besides the military diet which I am still going to do here and there!

This isn't really anything major it is just a detox drink that I found on Pinterest that I really want to try out!

This is called The Apple and Cinnamon Detox Water!

All you need is one small apple thinly sliced with one cinnamon stick and water! You just have to put it in the refridgerator for about 10 minutes before you drink it so it can get cold and you still eat throughout the day but very healthy. It is just supposed to boost your motabolism and help you loose weight. You can refill the water up to 3-4 times before you have to replace the apple slices and the cinnamon but I think this is just a really simple and easy drink to make and drink as my main source of liquid throughout the day and I am excited to see the results!

Please leave a comment if you have any other good ideas for me to try, maybe detox drinks or detox smoothies would be awesome! Love you guys and I promise I am going to keep my blog up and keep you guys updated!

xoxo

Never give up!

Hi Everyone! I am so sorry I have not been updating more frequently! My weight loss has been going really good!

I actually just finished up another 3 days on the military diet and have lost another 6 pounds! WOOOOH!
It makes me want to scream it off of a rooftop! Haha

Here are some of the groceries that I have picked up for my 4 days off!

I am so excited to continue this journey!

A little off topic but here are some random pictures that I have taken from since the last time I posted!

Here is one of the dinners I made! It is a chicken BLT wrap with Greek Yogurt instead a mayo! (SO YUMMY!) Some edamame and apples (:

 Here was the dessert I had that same night! About half a cup of plain vanilla yogurt with fresh blackberries and strawberries! (Like my picture editing?)

Here I am one moring I believe last week! I woke up early and decided to switch up my exercise routine a little bit instead of walking! I did some Ab exercises in my backyard! Here I had my feet elevated and crossed which putting both my arms to my side and going back and forth if that makes sense! (EXHAUSTING!)

Now I have to admit I have a pretty bad addiction...PINTEREST! I get on at least 4 times a day! They have amazing fitness and motivation pins and I came across this workout routine and I fell in love! I tried it for the first time last night and let me just say, I was sweatin! Hehe but I could really feel the workout! It did not take me very long but I can tell it is going to give me really good results!

Here I am taking a nightly walk/jog around my neighborhood! I love putting my headphones on and blocking out the world! Some of my favorite songs to listen to are, Turn Up the Music by Chris Brown, Feel This Moment by Pitbull and Christina Aguilera! <3

Hahahaha I thought this was funny! I sprinted from my stop sign to my driveway and came inside and collapsed in my entry way! hehehe (;

This doesn't really have a lot to do with working out but while I am changing and making my body healthy I might as well make my skin better! Right?! I picked this masque up at my local grocery store and hopped in a hot bath and turned my classical music on and relaxed! Ahhhhhhh <3

That is all for now folks! I hope you all comment below and tell me some good ideas about diet and exercise!

xoxo